Full-Blown Agony: My Struggle With the Puzzling Suffering of Cluster Headache Syndrome

It began on a overcast Monday in the morning in September 2016. I was working as a teacher, attempting to manage a new class, when a intense pain erupted behind my one eye. It was followed by quick stabs, like electric shocks. As the school day came and went, the pain eased and then returned with greater intensity. Four times that day I handed over a colleague with worksheets and ran to the staff bathroom to soak my face with cool water. I took aspirin, but the pain remained unrelenting.

The attacks appeared frequently that autumn, and again in spring, soon forming an yearly pattern. September and October were the most severe, then February and March. I could predict the pattern: a warning sensation in the morning, early twinges on the train, full-blown pain in class by mid-morning. In 2019, a GP finally referred me to a neurologist and I was diagnosed with cluster headaches.

Cluster headaches often start with intense pain behind a single eye that persists for several hours.

Approximately 1 in 1000 individuals are affected by the disorder, and males are more frequently affected. Attacks typically begin with abrupt, excruciating agony focused on one eye that peaks within a short time and lasts for as long as three hours. Attacks come in clusters, daily or several times a day, and are associated with tearing eyes, drooping eyelids or face perspiration. There exists the episodic form, which arrives in periodic bouts; others have continuous attacks, defined by the lack of long symptom-free periods.

What connects sufferers is the severity. One research paper rated the sensation at 9.7 10, more severe than bone fractures or other conditions. A separate found 64% of cluster headache patients experienced thoughts of self-harm amid bouts; the figure fell to four percent when they were not in pain.

One patient, 74, a chronic patient from Wales, finds this understandable. Her attacks started when she was a toddler. “I would hurl myself on the floor and hit my head. That was put down to being a difficult child,” she says. Her condition deteriorated through childhood. Alcohol in her adolescence, similar to several triggers, made things more intense. After having sherry at her graduation party, she remembers hardly being able to see on the bus home.

Her relatives often interpreted her attacks as intoxicated episodes. Support eventually came from her father and then from her husband, her spouse. “I was very fortunate to find such an exceptional person,” she says. Hobbs found clerical work after moving, but often concealed her illness. She was dismissed from one job, partly due to time off during episodes. Her definitive diagnosis came in the early 2000s at a specialist hospital.

Nevertheless, the inability to plan life around unpredictable pain took its effect. She particularly disliked being unable to plan outings, being seen as unreliable as a co-worker, and even having to be cared for by her family during the incapacitation caused by the worst episodes. “It robs you of the small freedoms we don't value until they're gone,” she says. She recalls winning tickets for a major concert, only to have an attack inside a facility.


Headaches have been documented throughout the ages. “The earliest description of headache comes by way of the ancient civilizations in antiquity,” write experts in a publication on the subject. They linked the ailment to an malevolent spirit who afflicted his victims' heads.

Ancient healing records suggest bizarre treatments for what modern experts would classify as a headache disorder. In the medieval times, migraine was identified as a separate disorder, with treatments including herbal concoctions to other, more folk cures.

It was a European doctor who provided the initial detailed description of a cluster headache. In his medical observations, he describes a patient “suffering with a very intense headache occurring and disappearing daily at fixed hours”.

The disorder were only officially recognised by international medical committees in 1988. From the 1960s to the 1990s, they were thought to be caused by a issue with a major artery that supplies blood to the brain. Prominent experts in treating the condition explain this.

In the late 1990s, researchers published the results of a study for which they had induced cluster headaches in patients and monitored the episodes in a imaging machine. The data, published in a major medical publication, showed activation of the hypothalamus, which is in charge for human sleep-wake cycles, when patients were in pain, and a deactivation when they felt better.

In spite of such progress, diagnosis remains slow. Jamie Charteris's symptoms started in 1986 and felt like “a modelling balloon being blown up behind my left eye”. Doctors thought he had a sinus issue; he had multiple operations before finally being diagnosed in recently, after a doctor researched his complaints.

Specialists say wait times in diagnosis and treatment happen because patients are rarely seen during an episode. “You're exhausted and depressed, but not in agony,” one says. He works by eliminating other common head pain disorders, such as migraine, before confirming the disorder. A thorough history is essential: on which part of the head do symptoms appear? For how long? What season? Are there precipitating factors, such as certain foods? Certain characteristics such as redness, drooping eyelids and nasal congestion help confirm cluster headaches. Once identified, patients may be sent to dedicated centers. But a lot of first arrive to emergency rooms or are given inadequate treatments.

A charity trustee, in her late seventies, has experienced the condition for most of her adult life, although she hasn't had an attack since 2016. When she was in her 20s, she had her molars extracted because dentists misunderstood her pain. She believes dentists still need greater awareness. When a sufferer sought help from a charity, it was she who replied. The author recalls calling a helpline during an attack in early 2021; a reassuring volunteer talked me through oxygen treatment and drugs until the episode passed.

Official guidelines on treatment recommend that patients are offered high-dose oxygen therapy and/or a anti-migraine drug delivered by injection. No tablets or strong analgesics should be used. Preventive choices include a blood pressure medication, which apparently soothes the bouts of some people.

But leading specialists believe the guidance need updating to reflect a more defined clinical process and help general practitioners avoid incorrect prescriptions. For periodic patients, timing is critical: “The length of the cycle determines the treatment.” Brief bouts with occasional episodes are handled with acute treatment alone. More prolonged or more severe periods require preventative medications such as verapamil, sometimes paired with corticosteroids. Many patients also receive a nerve block injection during a bout – an injection into the area of the skull where the pain is that decreases nerve signals.

The national guidelines need updating to reflect a
Megan Ramirez
Megan Ramirez

Elena Martini is a seasoned casino analyst with over a decade of experience in the gambling industry, specializing in bonus structures and player advocacy.